shaking flaking so afraid
of breaking the monotony
of being me with you with me
sighing buying time for crying
because I’m frustrated
and obliterated I’m scared
and I want you to see

sight like lightning more than frightening
I cry and scream at you
in dreams or nightmares running
away I’ve got you shunning the day
we met like you had a choice

nice and quiet
if that sells me buy it
wouldn’t you like to know
where all the happy people go
when they’re sad and blue
it’s not me it’s you I’m just here
to show you the world doesn’t know you
and it doesn’t matter anyway until
the day you say okay
I’m ready to learn to dance
so step right up give me a chance
to step on your toes and tug at your clothes
my balance is off
but at least your skin is soft
for now that is just wait

the sun is high in the sky as I
pry into why you lie
to you with me with you
while we live only to die but first
let me grow old
with hair of silver skin of gold
blood running cold
love bought and sold
have we become everything we said we’d be?

we’ve fought too long over
who’s right and wrong sang sad love songs
I hurt you so is what you said
so hang on tight I’m almost dead
and when I am I’ll haunt your head
and heart because good lovers never part
except to switch bed covers with others
screaming your name while I hear
someone else’s voice

a paint by number picture of this thing
between us (love?) something’s amiss
I’m perplexed too bad I’m colorblind
and dyslexed but something in me’s driving
all the while I’m striving
you and me surviving diving deeper
soaring higher
whispering sweet nothings like the town crier
don’t make me a liar
and I won’t make you run
won’t have to get my gun
in love and war the chase is fun the two
are often one so just be you with me with you
and we won’t have to end
to start anew

the wind is blowing through my hair
I’m going nowhere real goddamn fast
this settled feeling never lasts
knowing from the past the spell was cast
the curse the blessing what’s worse
I think I’m running late

but at the start in your car safety
wasn’t ever far though contact was hard
to make or break
in that lusty silence
thoughts of either fucks or violence
or maybe both at once
it’s yours no matter what you want
just tell me while you overwhelm me
and try to quell the ache inside
either fill my void or hide from my desire
you told me you want me
don’t be a liar

did you ever wonder how
we’d end up here ear to ear
each other’s best dream worst fear
I want you to know I have
and thinking of me with you with me
isn’t exactly innocent anymore
but neither are we.

© Crystal S. McDonald.