Monthly Archives: March 2013

While you can

First, there was Mama.

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My heart breaks every day, a thousand times a day, because I miss my mama. She was my best friend. She knew everything about me, loved everything about me, was proud of me, helped make me the woman I am today. I miss her so much.

I lost a string of uncles and aunts. I don’t have pictures of them. I wish I did. They look like Grandpa, though. And I miss him, too. He was a wonderful, sweet, wise man.

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My big brother’s best friend, Bill, died. He was like a second big brother to me.

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Then, my littlest sister, Melinda, died of heart failure.

Melinda, daughter Aiyaunah, newborn son Alohnzo

Melinda, with her daughter Aiyaunah (March 2010)

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I lost more cousins.

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Today, my cousin Carolyn.

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Also included throughout these past few years, I’ve lost more uncles. More aunts. More extended family. More loss. Please excuse me if I haven’t pictured someone or listed someone individually. I’ve been incredibly ill the last few years, and I have lost a lot of people.

Ashes to ashes, dust to dust.

We are all stardust.

Speak your truths to your people now, while you can.

Te quiero, Prima

Te quiero, prima. <3

I don’t think I said it often enough, but I love you.

Now, ashes to ashes, dust to dust.

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Creativity

After a long, dark year, my doctor and I have stumbled upon a new-to-me medication that is actually working for me. Instead of just existing, I’m starting to come back to life. Here are a few paintings I’ve done recently. Love the burst of creativity that has come with my reawakening.

Birch

Winter Birch. Oil pastels on canvas.

Downcast. Acrylic on canvas.

Night Fire. Acrylic on canvas.

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